Paris \\ Heartfelt

there's so much that had happened in just only 2 months. there's a lot to tell, but i don't know where should i start from. hmm, i guess i should have started to look for job now, but i ask myself again, where should i start from? looking back to the old pictures, reminds me of those time when i'm in college, i miss it a lot even thou always stress about tons of assignment, but i'd enjoyed it. missing all the school time. time flies, i've been in the society, the reality. at the same time, i lost myself too.

thought of the beautiful city, Paris. and i missed it a lot. the most beautiful city i've ever seen. i fall in love with it and wanted to go back so badly. missing the cold weather, the beautiful buildings, and everything over there.

the Eiffel Tower, and yes, my dream came true. 

the bread over there is really awesome, i miss it. so do the macaroons!

i promise i will be going back very soon. yes, very soon...

曾經

曾經有那麼的一個人

我們是朋友 是情侶 是家人

現在卻演變成如陌生人那樣陌生

我不喜歡這種感覺

這種 空虛

梦

已经连续几晚都梦见他 每一次醒来都觉得很空虚。

但今天醒来 我流泪了。

Late Night Thought for year 2013

time flies, didn't realize i had been 5 months never update my blog. always wanted to but it ends up the laziness kills again. today, had ended the first day of CNY. why so fast... soon have to get back to work again. the CNY is just too short for this year. oh! the other reason of it is because am already working adult too. feeling so old.

as we grow, things changed. there's lot of things had changed. its like roller coaster throughout the years by years. hmm, flash back to year 2013, seriously, i did lots of thing in this year, the year that i've spend the most! oh i have started up my small online business since end of the year 2013, it always been my dream to have my own online business. thou it still not too good nor too bad. still trying so hard on doing that. i hope one day i could have success like how others do! besides that, i joined AIA... seriously why? no idea why thou. i just want to try, although i really hate that. yes i know, nobody likes that. =X

also, had the most wonderful trip for the end of the year 2013 and beginning of the year 2014. will blog bout it soon! hopefully laziness wont kills again.

somehow, i found out that i'm really a loser. *booooooooo

what makes me think like that?

i can see everything from my eyes, feel everything from my heart.

but i could never find out which is the true or false.

sometimes, i feel like... uhm. nevermind. i will keep this for myself.

lastly, i just want to be happy for this whole year of 2014!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :)

Fly me to the SKY

As what the title has tell a lil story of my post today. I love FLYING, every time I get to fly, I felt pretty excited. I love travelling since years ago. And since years ago, I've a dream. I wanted to travel around the world, I wanted to be a FA (flight attendant/air stewardess/cabin crew).

But guess what, i could never achieve this dream. There's no airlines would take me because of my serious underweight issue. That's the reason I never try to go for it. I've did lots of research about being a FA, and also i did research a lot of how the interviews goes. I read through blogs how's the interviews goes, the FA's daily job and stuff, i asked, and I liked EduFly FB's page (An academy that provides training and directly secure the job). Gone through all the blogs, interviews is really the scariest part, training and working on board is scary too, but I still hope I stand a chance to try it out. *ok la, i got to admit because AA's uniform is too pretty to wear it on too, lols*

Days ago, I received a message from EduFly's staff, she came to me and told me that I have the potential to be a FA. after i told her my obstacle, my problem to be FA. She told me that my weight definitely is the obstacle for me to be FA, but i do have what they want for. Actually I really felt happy about this, I never know I do have the potential to be a FA, but still, my weight is my biggest obstacle. Maybe you guys will think that 'aiya, eat more la, ain't that difficult to gain weight too.' like drinking a cup of water could gain weight/fats. To be honest, it really a difficult for me to gain. I'm born in a skinny-gene-family. And so, i could never achieve this dream, because its really hard for me to gain even 1kg. (hmm, maybe i never put an effort on it. because i know it won't be happen) So I've lots of excuses to gain weight.

Instead of complaining, excuses, why not just try to gain some weight. I really hope i could gain some weight and fats one day. For myself. Maybe I shall start it right now, since she told me I have the potential? *grins* Hopefully I could gain some fats in 1/2 years? Because I'm just getting older, i don't wanna to be FA in older age :( that's really sad. *like I definitely get to work as FA one day*

GOD PLEASE BLESS ME

p/s: definitely not because of 'Triumph in the Sky' that makes me wanted to be a FA.

我

我听，我看，我羡慕。

废

我...我不懂应该从那里开始说起。我承认有时候 烦恼与压力都是自找的 很活该。最近不停的在想这个问题 想了又想 可是我还是找不到答案 4年了 反反复复的 到现在 还是这样的问题。我很累 心也很累。“知足常乐” 我明白这句简单的话，但是却一点也做不到。有的时候看见朋友都很有上进心的在计划自己的未来 而我呢？我什么也做不了 只会埋怨这 埋怨那。我知道明白了解这一切都是自己一个人的问题。很累 我总是看不见我的未来的路会是怎样。有时候 很想要有人可以分享我这一切 可是又如何？曾告诉过身边的很多朋友们 其实到最后也只有自己帮到自己。很自卑 很颓废。本来说好了 只想做到这个月罢了 可是种种的原因让我往后退了一步 然后 种种的问题又开始出现在脑海里。每一个人都有自己的梦想 我的梦想呢？还在梦里？我从来看不见我的梦想。我真的很羡慕那些有梦想 对自己的生活很有斗志 上进心的人。因为在我身上却找不到这一些。我承认自己真的很懒。唉。我真的不明白 不知道 也不晓得。我...觉得我活的没意义 没意思。很好奇 不懂这个世界上有多少个人会是跟我一样呢？我想...每一个人都会有自己的梦想吧？我真的很想知道 我到底要的是什么？我到底喜欢的是什么？我从来没想过我的人生会是那么迷茫的度过 有时候我真想从来没来过这里。